Drama Drama Drama

I've been in some serious drama for quite sometime now. And I've tried to always take the high road and not let it affect me. But it does, and I don't always let people see that. But today it came out full force. I didn't know that there was so much that I didn't know. I feel like a horrible person. But I know I'm not the only one who was wrong in the situation. I was wrong a lot and we didn't even talk about that. Just how I've wrong her. And it made me feel like a horrible person. I mean a horrible horrible person. I feel like I've always put others in front of myself, but I've slipped up a few times. Who hasn't? I'm only human, I wish she would realize that. All in all though, I left school crying today. Not the way I wanted to end my day.

I got home though and put in my Switchfoot CD. Meant to Live was the first track and its always something that makes me feel better. The second song though "This is your Life" was one I hadn't heard before. Something about it made me feel better.

"This is your life, are you who you want to be?...Yesterday is the kid in the corner. Yesterday is dead and over....Don't close your eyes."

This isn't how I want to be. Or my life to be. I just want to be a normal teenager. And, I get drama is normal, but... I don't know. I hate it. I feel like crap. And I wish that people would understand though I put others before myself most of the time. I am human and have feelings too.